Has it really been that long?!

I guess it really has been that long since I've blogged. To be honest, I never really thought I'd come back to this, but I guess every now and then I have the urge to spill my guts to complete strangers, most likely no one.

School started 3 weeks ago, and I'm already overwhelmed with readings and assignments. Don't ask me why I'm doing this instead. Unfortunately, at this particular moment, I'm unable to keep my focus on my studies, my mind are on other things. I always hope that it would be easier done than said, but as you know, that's never the case.

I'm usually apprehensive about writing about this particular topic, even though I know that the chances of him reading it is slim to none. But then again, you never know. I've always had the urge to post my link onto Facebook, but I never do in fear of this. You might ask, wow, she hides most of her feelings from him...well, not exactly the case. He knows exactly what I want, yet, somehow I know that he won't be able to give it to me, at least not until the current situation changes. A part of my wants to 'stick it out', but most of me wonders how much longer I can continue waiting, and compromising.

This morning I woke up on the brighter side, but that quickly changed at the end of our conversation over the phone before he went in for work. Well, looks like I can't really blog about this anymore as it's just making me feel even more depressed.

Apologies for the depressing comeback. As if anyone's really reading this right now.

Allergies Suck

After having gone through days of sneezing and walking around with a very irritated nose and stuffy head, I've come to the conclusion that I have allergies, and so did the doctor. I've missed two days of work, so I had no choice but to visit Jo's doctor, who charges $15 for a note even if you've gone to see him for a check up, what a rip-off. I really needed that doctor's note though, I hate calling in sick sometimes, and if I do, I like giving them a note so they know I'm not playing it. The doctor prescribed me some pills, and said I should be feeling better in two weeks. I admitt, he's not the best doctor around, he didn't even give me an allergy test, so realistically, he was just assuming that because trees are blooming, I must be allergic to pollens and stuff. Could be the case, but I want to know exactly what I'm allergic to. Even though he gave me prescriptions, I decided not to buy it.

I went to work yesterday, and everything was cool with my manager. There were some issues that I needed to speak to her about. Like I said, I had called in sick two days and had people to cover for me. As it turns out, one girl decided to call in sick too, an hour before the shift started. The thing is, she confirmed with me that she'd take the shift the night before, and I told her I'd confirm with her the next morning after I'd call into work saying that she'd be taking my shift instead. The following day, I couldn't get a hold of the girl, even called her house phone and left a message with her dad, I must've sent her a million text messages, and her cell phone was off. The only reason why I found out that she didn't come in was because she emailed me that night, and I didn't get it the following day. Shit. So when I went into work yesterday, I spoke to my manager and she told me not to worry, she said she didn't believe that girl was really sick, and she has a reputation for being stupid. So, although work can be a bitch because of all the cranky customers we get, my management team is still the bomb.

In other news...hehe. Apparently, Jo's elementary friends are planning a little get together. Well, it was his ex that initiated the whole thing, and also his ex that said 'No kids/partners, just us'. What was that supposed to mean? See, I never really understood this. Jo said not to worry because they're all just going to 'catch up' on things and 'hang'. Well, ok, that I understand, but what the fuck? Y'all can't do that with your significant others around??? One time Jo went out with his buddy and his girl-friend, it was her birthday, and the three of them decided to go out, which is cool. What's uncool is that Jo didn't even ask me. All of a sudden I call him and he was out already. Of course I was pissed. Here's the thing, I don't get out much, because of school, work and what not. So, I wouldn't mind going out once in a while. Also, when I ask to go out, he's never in the mood, so we NEVER go out. Towards the end of the night when I called Jo, his girl-friend decided to scream into the phone saying, 'You guys are always together, why don't you let him out for once?' Shit, I never liked her from then on, and I never will, and I don't care if she's a lesbian. Yes, she is, as what Jo says. Oh ok, so now she's a lesbian, it's ok? I still didn't like what she said over the phone, the nerve of that bitch. First of all, I do let him go out, I just don't appreciate it when I'm not invited because I always invite Jo to any of my outings. So he can go to this 'gathering' of theirs in June, but I'll be pissed as hell, no matter what he says.