Has it really been that long?!

I guess it really has been that long since I've blogged. To be honest, I never really thought I'd come back to this, but I guess every now and then I have the urge to spill my guts to complete strangers, most likely no one.

School started 3 weeks ago, and I'm already overwhelmed with readings and assignments. Don't ask me why I'm doing this instead. Unfortunately, at this particular moment, I'm unable to keep my focus on my studies, my mind are on other things. I always hope that it would be easier done than said, but as you know, that's never the case.

I'm usually apprehensive about writing about this particular topic, even though I know that the chances of him reading it is slim to none. But then again, you never know. I've always had the urge to post my link onto Facebook, but I never do in fear of this. You might ask, wow, she hides most of her feelings from him...well, not exactly the case. He knows exactly what I want, yet, somehow I know that he won't be able to give it to me, at least not until the current situation changes. A part of my wants to 'stick it out', but most of me wonders how much longer I can continue waiting, and compromising.

This morning I woke up on the brighter side, but that quickly changed at the end of our conversation over the phone before he went in for work. Well, looks like I can't really blog about this anymore as it's just making me feel even more depressed.

Apologies for the depressing comeback. As if anyone's really reading this right now.

Gross, I can't belive I saw that...

Sorry for not having updated in a while. I've been busy with work the last few weeks, and last week we were back to school.

Let me tell you about the recent stagette I had to go to...It was the first time that I had ever been in a stip club. Let me just say I was not impressed, nor entertained. At first, I was intrigued, but after a while it got really boring. It was just the same shit over and over again. And why is it that I had to see an un-circumsized dick that night?! Gross. To make things worse, we ended up in a gay strip club, we hadn't realized. 95% of the people in there were male, also the strippers were gay. Eventually, we all got bored and ended up clubbing. So, would I ever go to a strip club again? Probably not.

The first week of school was pretty frustrating. I had to go to the Financial office to take care of my loan and a book bursary that I got approved for. Why was it that I was in line for over an hour and didn't get in? I even came in early before class. I figured I'd get all my shit done and just go to class. And R. this girl I really cannot stand, was 3 people in front of me in the line, and she texts me asking if I'm staying in line or going to class. Fuck. Why waste 15 cents, just come up to me and ask. Anyway, I went to class and so did she, she just came in for the course outline and didn't bother staying for lecture. She wanted to go back into the line. The nerve of this girl, before she leaves, she asks to borrow my notes. That was on Tuesday, I haven't given her my notes yet. She asked me the next day and I told her I didn't have my notes. What does she think? She can just do whatever the fuck she wants because she knows I'm serious about my studies and I'm always in class so she can rely on me? Well, up her ass. Stupid bitch.

So much for a happy 'I'm back to blogging' post...LOL.